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i want to know you too ingame...im impress with all your post lol

Let's have a SSephiroth welcome back party so we all meet him

You guys flatter me, thank you.
Again, this community rocks.

I'm not in game much lately, and my characters are low level.
I could use my old characters... but I'm not ready to leave anonymity yet.

What I'm really hoping for is to get some action going on the forum. Tell your friends, get them involved. Lets get the party started!

Do I knew u?

[SSephiroth]

[Do I knew u?

Perhaps
Your name is familiar.....

[Ryaca]

SSephiroth wrote:

"I'm not in game much lately, and my characters are low level.
I could use my old characters... but I'm not ready to leave anonymity yet."

You could always create a new character with your current forum name and be able to play and maintain your anonymity.

[ardesia]

I'm not in game much lately, and my characters are low level.
I could use my old characters... but I'm not ready to leave anonymity yet.

Well then you send us a secret codeword via pm here on forum and use it in green chat when you meet us ingame - that's the best compromise between standing anonimous and meeting ppl I can think of

[SSephiroth]

I just woke up, haven't been sleeping well; I have the flu and feel like garbage.
Yet you people still manage to put a smile on my face.
This is exactly what I've missed most about FT.
You don't know who I am, yet you've opened your arms to me, welcoming me.
Also, encouraging me to play and accommodating my unusual desire for wanting to remain anonymous.
Thank you.

*sigh*
Maybe its the fever talking...
This is tearing me up inside.
Here I am, trying to pretend to be something I'm not.
Trying to go against my nature, its not working. I'm not very good at it.
I feel like a liar and a fake.
Yet you accept me.

As I go along, more and more of my true self is shining through, despite my effort to conceal myself.
I think its becoming more obvious and less vague who I might be.
Already, at least two players have guessed my identity.
Yet, out of friendship and respect, they've agreed to keep my secret, at least I think so.

You guys are really awesome, you know that?
Maybe its time I bite the bullet, face my fears, man up, and stop playing around.
But I'm not hiding myself because I'm ashamed of who I was.
I'm hiding because I'm afraid I'm no longer who I was.

This post needs to be approved by a GM. There's a strong chance this post will not make it to the forum.
Before a GM or a player dismisses this post as nonsense, please understand.
I'm looking for help and advice, from some old friends.
Will you accept me as I am now, if I stop hiding? Even though I'm different?
Will you forgive me?
These are the questions that are holding me back.

These last couple of days have been fantastic. Being on this forum, and experiencing the love.
Really, the community on this game was always awesome.
Just a shame the forum isn't as active as it once was.
I was trying to liven it up a little too.

To any GM or player reading this.
Just try to read between the lines a little.
It will all make sense if you know who I am.

Special note to the GM reading this for approval.
This final paragraph may be removed at your whim.
If this post is unsatisfactory, consider removing everything but the first paragraph, is that ok?
But, read my post carefully, and try to understand how I feel.
It is relevant.
Maybe you already know who I am.
Maybe you're angry with me.
Maybe you don't want to talk to me.
But, I'm going to eventually make the effort anyway.
When I work up the courage.

[Ryaca]

I do not believe you are a liar or a fake. I believe you are heavily conflicted right now and are taking the necessary time needed to carefully make the decision that you feel is right in your heart. I don't know who you are or what you have done in your past life here in FT but I believe that each and every one of us change as the seasons pass us by. Whatever decision you make regarding your anonymity, I believe it will be the right one. I've certainly learned that life is full of choices and conflict and that each choice must be weighed carefully. I for one will not judge you. You seem very sincere and that is enough for me. I strongly encourage you to play FT again whether as a past alt or new identity. It may remind you of why you started playing this amazing and extremely addictive game in the first place.

[SSephiroth]

I do not believe you are a liar or a fake. I believe you are heavily conflicted right now and are taking the necessary time needed to carefully make the decision that you feel is right in your heart. I don't know who you are or what you have done in your past life here in FT but I believe that each and every one of us change as the seasons pass us by. Whatever decision you make regarding your anonymity, I believe it will be the right one. I've certainly learned that life is full of choices and conflict and that each choice must be weighed carefully. I for one will not judge you. You seem very sincere and that is enough for me. I strongly encourage you to play FT again whether as a past alt or new identity. It may remind you of why you started playing this amazing and extremely addictive game in the first place.

Again, you are reinforcing my thought that this community is awesome... thank you for the kind words.
You seem to understand very well where I'm coming from.
I've made my decision... I will reveal myself soon.
This way, I can interact with the community on a more realistic level, and get in touch with some more old friends.
There's just some matters I need to take care of first.
I'll explain with a post when its all set.

[Ryaca]

You are welcome. Please take as much time as you need.