journal of the dead

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i am neither young nor old

foolish or wise

alive or dead

i live an empty existence devoid of direction purpose or meaning

i am the living dead

i am an empty vessel wandering aimlessly in this world

i am as unthinking and unfeeling as the dead

i am poison and everything that i touch is forever tainted

only negative can be found from knowing this ghost

my brain has been baptized with psychotropical madness

my reasoning is twisted and my view of the world is twisted

my infected eyes see only darkness and chaos

i am numb and incapable of feeling compassion or empathy a sociopath

i roam thru the halls of the dead and the damned

hell is my final destination and i will burn for all eternity

until then i am a lost entity with no soul to be found

doomed to never experience life as it was intended to be

suffering and misery and torment are my friends

forevermore


taken from page 23 in the cryptic writings of the ghost in the journal of the dead
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I woke up in the real world too... Next time i ll choose other pill and forget all
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tonight i tried something new to test the waters

i walked into the forest in a straight path very slowly and counted 100 steps and did not look around or behind me

when i reached 100 steps i closed my eyes and counted to 200

when i had finished counting i opened my eyes and immediately turned around without observing my surroundings

i then proceeded to walk out of the forest without looking around or behind me

when i exited the forest i stopped and stood still and closed my eyes again and counted to 200

when i had finished counting i opened my eyes and did not look around or behind me and proceeded home

within the silence of this whole experience i discovered something about myself


taken from page 96 in the cryptic writings of the ghost in the journal of the dead
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reflection is both a blessing and a curse

on one hand it can allow one to learn and grow and also allow one to remember past events in the memories of their life

on the other hand it can remind one how flawed and broken that they are

when i look back on my life i see so much wreckage and victims and hurt pain and anguish

i do not question my existence or purpose here as i am a ghost and my doom is my own and well known to me but the thought of all of my wrongs overwhelms me

so much damage so much agony so much destruction

broken pieces of glass everywhere that crunches beneath my footsteps as a constant reminder of how much torture their has been and how hollow i am and how much pain i have caused to everyone who has ever had my life touch theirs

there is no soul here no redemption and no hope for any future save a very bleak dark cold and empty existence

i have walked far and the glass still crunches beneath my feet

at least i know that hell is a real place and one day i will burn for all of eternity in fire that is so beautiful and pure

i will finally know the torment of the damned

taken from page 1 in the cryptic writings of the ghost in the journal of the dead
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existence is punishment

to live every day is torment

i woke today and just layed there for an hour staring at the ceiling

to exhausted to get up and face the day

to weary to attempt to get up

they haunt me in my dreams

the ghosts of my past

with their sick twisted ghastly grins they dance with me while i sleep

will they never give me any peace

have i not suffered enough has my penance not been paid

as i rise and roam the lands i contemplate wat monsters i will see when i drift to sleep again

maybe ill be looking in the mirror

taken from page 2 in the cryptic writings of the ghost in the journal of the dead
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dance with the dead in my dreams

listen to their hollow screams

the dead have taken my soul

the dead have taken my soul


taken from page 3 in the cryptic writings of the ghost in the journal of the dead
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i can now closethe pages of this book forever
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